Disclaimer: this has nothing to do with beauty. Well, not the kind we usually talk about on this channel/site anyway. Let me paint you a picture.
I'm sitting here in the closest thing to heaven here on earth
drinking God's nectar
getting some work done listening to my AirPod pros (fantastic tech by the way, but I digress) and The Bones by Maren Morris comes on. If you don't know it, this is the video.
In an effort to provide some context/background here, this is a song that our lovely Tanya heard some time ago and thought of me, sent it to me, and told me to listen to the lyrics. She does this to me all the time because she's the loviest person EVER.
The lyrics she sends me are always amazing, but the song isn't always the BEST, though usually it's at least "pretty good."
However, THIS one... this one is a home run on all fronts. My point is, this song is one of "our songs." So, back to my a** sitting here on the hardest seats this side of the Mississippi drinking my "go-get-em juice." The song kicks on and while our songs always make me think of her
...it was different this time, though this isn't the first time it's been "different." But in the "different" category, this time was a 10. Something in me just broke. This week has been challenging for us on many levels. Not as a couple (as in the strength of our relationship) or anything, but we were presented with a situation that I never thought I'd have to face. Maybe I just hoped it would never arise. I mean, the odds certainly weren't in my favor. I don't know. I can't go into more detail than that, so please forgive that level of annoyance
I love my wife. I hope that is obvious. Many of you seem to see it in the videos and have commented as much, but... it's times like these when I realize just how much I love this woman. My whole body reacted to this song. I felt something brewing at the deepest levels. This week had its way with me and I sat here teary eyed... "with" her. I swear I could feel her here. Just sitting here with me, like "I got you, babe. It's ok." One of those moments where if she had been here physically, we wouldn't have said anything to each other. When a look is all it takes. When it's about the energy exchange, not the words. I sat there wallowing in "that thing" until... eventually, it started to dissipate.
If you're like
or just plain
I never said it would make sense. I never even said I had a point. In fact, if you know me, you should come into this blog with that in mind.
I don't know. Maybe I should have titled this post
I hope each and every one of you find, keep, and live the rest of your lives with this kind of
but at the VERY least, you experience it for yourself, regardless of longevity... at least once. In my opinion, this is what it's all about. This is why we wake up in the morning. This is why we pursue the things we do, why we spend our money on things that we think/hope will make us feel a certain way. It's all because we're chasing this right here. Not the moment I just had. That was pain/fear/helplessness leaving the body (again with the 💩 you aren't even frickin' telling us, dude)
It's not the moment that I'm talking about, it's this unconditional love I feel from the warrior in my corner. Everyone needs someone they can count on NO MATTER WHAT. Someone that makes you feel like this whole b**ch could burn down and you'd be
To all of you out there, yes YOU reading this (because you signed up to the best blog EVER), I'm sending you my hopes, vibes, and all the energy I can muster... I want this for you.
Maybe... just maybe, I might be projecting onto you a fear I have for my daughters as I want this for them so badly. But if I'm honest with myself, it really isn't just them. I've been witness to so much 💩 in my day, to so many 💩 relationships, to so much abuse, so many lies, so much selfishness that I'm burned the
out and I just need to
sometimes. And there's no better place than to do that with my little slice of anxiety (it's a pet name 😉).
So... here's to you guys
Now go get em!
And if you're reading this, babe